Their First Goodbyes

It was just an ordinary day for Jhudiel. She was enjoying the rest of her vacation days before she goes back to school. Jhudiel is excited about the thought that she is now a college student. But she is also scared of it. She is not sure what to expect.

Jhudiel was unaware that she is in for another surprise from her dear friend Gabriel.

Gabby paid her a visit. He was there in her house to say goodbye. His Mom was able to complete all the papers for their migration to the United States. And anytime soon, they will be leaving. Gabby asked her to promise to keep in touch. He asked for her phone number; and he asked for the address and phone numbers of their other classmates.

He promised to keep in touch with her, no matter what happens.

Jhudiel was happy for his friend. But at the same time, she is also sorrowful. Her only guy friend, who is very close to her, is now going away. He would be miles away from her. She remembered her very first thought about Gabby again. And something inside her now is saying, “this is all part of God’s big plan.”

For a moment there, Jhudiel felt strange. Notwithstanding the fact that her dear friend is moving away, there’s a grain of relief she felt within her heart, soothing the sorrow inside her. Somehow, she feels that their friendship will keep on; it will remain.

Back to Normal

20 July 2009

I just got out from a meeting when I saw a message from Gabby. He is online. We were able to chat a little. He was again using his mobile phone to connect to the internet and chat. During that moment, as I walk back to my desk, I was actually thinking of him. I was hoping that he would be online when I check my computer. And yes, he was.

Thinking about it now, I suddenly felt scared. I told myself that I should not get used to him being always online. And us always talking again. I am scared that I might get affected (again) when the time comes that this chatting and talking things would stop. I need to constantly remind myself that these things that are happening now are all normal happenings between friends. There would not be and there must not be any unusual expectations; unnecessary thoughts and reactions. Everything is back to normal. We are now enjoying our walk to the new path of friendship.

Jhudiel

The First Ordeal

Graduation is just around the corner. It has been a while since Jhudiel spoken with Gabriel. She has not seen him in class since the last day of their final exams; until she finally saw her with the rest of the boys in their class. They were able to exchange “hellos” and he mentioned something about being busy helping her mom preparing some important papers. That was the last time they spoke. She did not saw him during the graduation ceremony. Jhudiel was not even sure if he was present during the ceremony.

A few weeks after their graduation ceremony, Jhudiel was surprised to receive a mail from Gabriel. She was really astonished... and happy. Gabriel’s letter shares the story why he’s been very busy after their final exams. He was helping her mother prepare their application papers for the United States Embassy. They are migrating to the US; and they might be staying there for good, with his Dad.

Jhudiel was not sure how she felt at that moment while reading Gabriel’s letter. Happiness still dwells inside her; brought about by this pleasant surprise from her dear friend. But there is also something inside her that made her feel a bit perplexed; and she suddenly remembered the first thought she had during the first time she saw Gabriel in class.

And now, the letter bears the first ordeal of Jhudiel and Gabriel’s friendship. They are going to part ways soon. And what’s tough about it is they are going to be miles and miles apart; away from each other. The long distance would definitely matter to a friendship that is just beginning.

Smiling and Blushing

17 July 2009

We had a chance to chat again today. It was already late actually; I was trying to finish something in my laptop. I was surprised that he was online. He just woke up, he said. It was around 7am on his side of the planet; and around 11pm on my side.

The connection was a little bad. He is using his mobile phone. And so the messages are delayed. Anyway, I just want to take note of the words he told me during the course of our online conversation. They made me smile… and blush, hehe… I just want to take note of it, that’s all… nothing more. I just want them to be part of our memories.

- He seemed worried when I told him about this little accident I had that morning. I can feel how he cares for me when he asked me if I was hurt. He told me that I should always be careful.

- I was one of his priorities; I am part of his priorities.

- And when I said good night to him, he said “good night”, gave me a kiss (mwah!) and said “love you”.

I don’t want these word get into my head (nor into my heart) for I am pretty sure what would be produced out of it. I have a crazy mind and very disturbed emotions. It is capable of manufacturing superfluous thoughts and emotions; that would later on make simple things complicated.

These are just simple, caring words and gestures from a special friend to her dear friend. Nothing more.

Jhudiel

The Beginning

You can’t say it is love at first sight, because Gabriel was not really that good looking. He is tall, dark and thin. Although Gabriel has an amazing eyes and nice lips; but still it was not love at first sight. But something about this boy that caught the heart of Jhudiel. From the first moment she saw him in class, there’s this little voice that spoke inside her saying that this boy will forever be part of her life. As Gabriel was trying to weasel his way out of the conversation with their teacher for not having his homework in history, the strange thought continues to linger inside her mind. She was a bit confused for having that thought. How can this boy be forever part of her life, when they are not even talking and he does not seem to know that she exist; he does not seem to notice her.

But as the days pass by, Jhudiel suddenly found herself being friends with Gabriel. They talk during break time. They talk about their classes, especially their history class. They love to talk about their teachers; the funny things the class does to their teachers and to their own classmates. And in each day that passes by, a certain feeling of likeness and love started to grow inside her. But something inside her is also telling her not to take notice of these superfluous emotions that’s been sprouting inside her heart. They are just friends. And that is how it is going to be. This is the first time (and probably the only time) she had a guy friend that she can talk with while she’s being herself. In other words, she feels comfortable with Gabriel. They can talk about anything; she is not afraid to show him her true self. Their friendship has already reached a certain point where they already share personal details about their lives. Both of them find comfort from each other whenever they talk about their personal issues and problems. They are like brother and sister.

“This is how it is going to be,” Jhudiel thought. Maybe that was the voice inside her head was pertaining to. This boy will forever be part of her life because they are going to have a special kind of friendship. A friendship that will last a lifetime.

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Jhudiel and Gabriel

Jhudiel and Gabriel are best of friends. They met during their senior year in high school. Gabriel is a transferee to Jhudiel’s school. And like Gabriel, Jhudiel is also a transferee to the star section. She used to belong to the 2nd highest section; but for that year, the school implemented the system of putting all the top students in one class – the star section class. Both of them are “aliens” to their classmates. And this common thing about these two totally different individual, is actually the beginning of their friendship. It is the seed of a wonderful and interesting friendship.

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