The List, October 2009

As I have mentioned in my earlier post, here is the list I created last October 2009. Some of the items in this list were also mentioned in my other blogs. And I am happy to say that I was able to complete/to do some of the items already (proud and smiles).

There are some items in the list that are not achievable or do-able in a year's time (big grin). But I will try my best to cross out a significant number of items I listed before the year 2010 ends. I still want to re-write my list and group them by categories; and I want to put a schedule also, a target date perhaps. I am still trying to think of ways how to do post this list and show updates.

October 9, 2009 - October 9, 2010
1.) Find a new job
2.) Work abroad
3.) Travel - philippines, asia, US
4.) Go to Baguio. Alone. Bus Ride.
5.) Open a bank account - done
6.) Save money - trying hard (big grin)
7.) Spend quality time with an old friend
8.) Try an extreme sports
9.) Enroll on baking class
10.) Learn how to swim
11.) Take voice lessons
12.) Sing on a live audience
13.) Hug and kiss a special person
14.) Live independently
15.) Drive my own car
16.) Have my own business
17.) Put up an aquarium
18.) Go on a trip with the whole family
19.) Sleep under the open sky while gazing at the stars with special person/people
20.) Love unconditionally
21.) Laugh more often. Laugh hard until I cry.

- i have experienced this a couple of times last year (since I wrote this list). First one was October 16, 2009 and the other one was on October 21, 2009.

22.) Do something random/spontaneous/crazy.
23.) Laugh and talk about it with the friend (I'm with while doing the random.crazy thing)
24.) Have my own house
25.) Quit smoking
26.) Quit thinking about "him" (big grin)
27.) Make new friends. More friends.
28.) Night swimming - Swimming Pool. I'm scared of the beach at night (big grin)
29.) Wear a 2-piece swim suit
30.) Go on a date (blind date?)
31.) Finish reading my HP books
32.) Finish reading the book I borrowed from Mark last summer
33.) Return the book to Mark (big grin)
34.) Finish reading PDL
35.) Quit daydreaming (big grin)
36.) Lose weight
37.) Quit putting things off (big grin) - hopefully this list will help me with this item
38.) Complete my pending items in the office (1st Q of 2010)
39.) Love myself (more)
40.) Get married
41.) Have kids
42.) Buy a new pair of rabbits
43.) Pay debts (February 2010)
44.) Celebrate my Bday 2010 with special people
45.) Keep moving forward
46.) Smile often
47.) Go to church and hear mass every Sunday
48.) Go to the spa (every quarter) (wish!)
49.) Go to the spa with Mommy and Tita (twice or once a year) (big grin)
50.) Chuck Taylor Shoes (waiting for Santa's package hehehe.. fingers-crossed)
51.) Compose a song
52.) Continue writing poetry
53.) Take more photos. More photos, more memories to cherish.
54.)

Habits to Break

I know I have bad habits that I need to stop or at least control (but it would be better to stop). But for now, I am thinking of two habits that I would want to break. Both of them starts with the letter C. I think and I feel that these habits are not really "helping me".

The first one is my vitamin C habit. This magic stick has been my companion for more than 5 years now. And would you believe that my love ones have no idea that I've been a vitamin C user for a long time now. Shhh... its our secret okay? (big grin) Anyway, I was introduced to the magic stick when I first had my heart broken and I had a taste of the corporate life. Reality bites. Ever since then, it has been my companion during heartaches and depressions.

I want to stop using vitamin C slowly. And hopefully, I would be able to totally quit using it by the second quarter of 2010. This C is bad for my health (can't believe I am saying this) (big grin)

The second C habit that I want to break - C for Charming. My "Prince Charming" that is; the love of my life; my destiny, that was all I know and what I believed for a long time. I've been waiting for Charming to realize that. I continued to wish and to hope and to pray. But I guess God's been telling me for a long time to stop wishing, hoping and praying for Charming; I just didn't listen. And I think now is the time to stop waiting (finally!) Yes, I am trying. And hopefully, I would be able to break the habit of thinking about Charming and move on with my life. I am listening now. I know God has been preparing my Prince for me; and his name is not Charming.

I remained friends with Charming. That's how we were and that's how its going to be 'til the end. And I am happy about it. As for my habit of thinking about Charming, I aim to be Charming Free by the end of the 1st quarter of 2010.

Wish me good luck!

Laugh Until You Cry

Laugh hard until I cry. This is one thing that I always want to experience. It is actually a very good thing. Laughing is a good state of emotion; but laughing so hard until you're in tears is truly an awesome state of emotion. You'll feel good and happy (as in the very essence of happiness) after laughing your heart out (big grin).

I was able to be in this state twice since the time I started my bucket list. The first one was on 16 October 2009, with my friend/office mate T. The second one was on 21 October 2009, with T again and with A (they are my friends and office mates).

My friend/office mate T always laugh at me and with me... hehehe... She said that I am funny. Sometimes we would laugh so hard just because we are looking at each other. Whenever I'm with T, we always giggle and laugh together.

I am still looking forward to moments when I would laugh so hard with my friends and love ones, until tears are rolling down my face. Tears of true joy and happiness.

How It Started

The idea of making a list of all the things that I want to do and accomplish came to me last October 2009. I was watching the movie The Bucket List showing in HBO one night and it somehow inspired me to create my own bucket list. In the movie, the man prepared a bucket list because they are sick. Soon they are kicking the bucket. As for me, I decided to create my own because I feel that my life is going nowhere (big grin). Life is short. And I don't want to waste it no more. For the last 4-5 years, I feel like I have been standing on the same ground. All the while I thought, I was doing what it takes to find my place in this world; but for the last 4-5 years, every Holiday season, I find myself on the same situation. Nothing's changed. I am still here. I am what I was 4-5 years ago. And then I would end up asking myself, where have all those years gone? To stop that same thing to happen again, I feel that a bucket list would help me make the most out of my time. And make sure that no time nor day is wasted; that each day is lived to the fullest.

I hope this online journal would inspire others to make their own bucket list. And together, let us journey through life and enjoy it to the fullest. Let this be our gift to ourselves this Holiday Season. New Year, New Life.

Happy Holidays everyone!

Who is Jhudiel?

Perhaps you are wondering, who is Jhudiel?

Jhudiel is actually my Guardian Angel. Archangel Jhudiel.

I was born on a Friday and Angel Jhudiel is God's gift to me as my Guardian Angel.

Archangel Jhudiel is known as the bearer of God's merciful love and also an angel over Friday. He is usually depicted with a flaming heart or the Sacred Heart in hand.

And when the right time comes, when I'll be blessed with a child, I would like to name my first born - Jhudiel. This is one item in my bucket list.

photo credits here

Jhudiel's Journal - My Bucket List

First of all, I want to greet everyone a Merry Christmas! Today is certainly a very special day to all the people around the world. We are celebrating the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ. And to make this day even more special and memorable to me, I decided to start the new theme for this blog.

Jhudiel's Journal. Share with me this wonderful journey, as I try to live life to the fullest. Each moment will be chronicled. Adventures and dreams will be shared. Memories will be treasured.

May this journal inspire others. May this journal be the witness of how I try to enjoy living before kicking the bucket. This is my bucket list.